Will It Ever Happen?

This layout means the world to me. It was very hard to make but very therapeutic at the same time. I am so glad I can share this with you. It has been a VERY emotional 2009. Scott & I are so lucky to have great friends and family members that have helped us get through this. Thank you for taking the time to read this. And for those of you who have went through what I have, know you are not alone and it is OK to talk about it!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Journaling:

On Jan. 11th,2009, I had the biggest surprise of my life. I found out I was pregnant! I had so many emotions running through my body. Scott was in shock but a HAPPY shock. As the days went on my excitement grew and the fear started to fade. I was going to be a mommy! Scott was going to be a daddy!

On January 26th ,2009 we received horrible news. I had to go to the ER for bleeding and severe cramps. They did an ultrasound and confirmed I was having a miscarriage. It was the worst thing I have ever had to go through mentally & physically. I had so many thoughts going through my head. What did I do wrong? Why me? What could I have done different? Time healed my heart, as it did Scott's. We decided we wanted to try again for a baby. I thought it would take many months to happen. Maybe even years.

To my surprise, on June 13th, 2009, I found out I was pregnant again. I thought to myself it is REALLY going to happen this time. I ate right, got enough rest and told myself everyday that Scott and I were going to be the BEST parents in the world. I was seeing a doctor in Louisville every 2 weeks to make sure my HCG level was rising and that I was producing enough progesterone. Everything was going great!

On July 1st I woke up with some bleeding . I called my doctor and he scheduled an ultrasound that same day. Scott took off of work early and drove me to Louisville. As we were driving, my bleeding became severe and I started cramping. By the time we got to the clinic I was in so much pain. I thought I was going to pass out. They confirmed, again, that I was having another miscarriage.

To this day, my heart is still trying to heal from this. I still ask myself all the whys and whats but I know I shouldn't beat myself up over this. It is NOT my fault. I want to have a baby with Scott more than anything. I want to have what everyone else around me seems to have. When our hearts have healed, we will try again. I keep telling myself, everything happens for a reason. In loving memory of both babies lost at 8 weeks and 5 weeks.

CHA Sneak Peeks, Golfing & Halloween!

Let me just say that I am in LOVE with every single Halloween line that is coming out! If you know me then you know Halloween is my absolute favorite thing in this world! Besides Halloween being my FAV, American Crafts is pretty high up on my list too. Halloween and American Crafts together?! I have died and went to scrapbooking heaven!!!

Here are some pics of the new supplies:

New Thickers...YUM!

And of course I can't leave out Christmas & Valentine's Day! Way too cute!

More new Thickers!

Sassafras has some amazing stuff coming out too. The felties are to die for :)

I believe I will be going broke in about 2 months...how about you?! And I really need to be saving my money...ugh!! Why OH why do they do this to us?!

On to some other things...Scott took me outside yesterday for another lesson in golf. He is an awesome golfer. He played in high school and goes with his buddies all the time. I am getting pretty good...I think :) He is supposed to take me golfing soon...he promised...he better! I think he is avoiding it though haha! He took a pic of me before I hit 3 out of the 4 balls. Pretty good don't ya think?!

And speaking of Halloween, I have already bought my outfit that I'm going to wear! I can't wait! It's a little risky...but hey, it's Halloween and that is allowed, RIGHT?! Here is what my outfit looks like...minus the red fur boot covers.

I need to find some red high heals. And I mean HIGH heals haha! I'm so short! Plus, I need to get my butt back on the Wii Fit. My tummy needs to be more toned! Heck, what am I saying, my WHOLE body needs to be toned up! I figure if I do about 500 hula hoop exercises every SINGLE day till Halloween...I should have a rockin' tummy :)

Time to get offline now...I need to start cooking lunch! I'm going to try a new recipe for hamburgers. Fries for the side. So much for eating healthy, eh?! Here is another new layout of my crazy husband. I wanted the layout to be crazy just like him! I had to take a picture of this one, way too bulky to scan! Have a great Wednesday everyone!

A Lazy Sunday!

Besides cleaning and making a couple of layouts today I have not done a darn thing! I like it that way! Haha :) I am waiting on Scott to get home so we can order the PPV that starts at 8:00. I can't wait...I hope Randy keeps his title. I'm already going to call that match...I think he is going to lose. I will be very surprised if he wins!

We had a great time at Tasha's wedding yesterday. I have known her since 7th grade! We were SO close in school. We haven't talked much in the past few years though. :( Hopefully we can start getting together more! She was a beautiful bride and her new husband looked so handsome! They had a beautiful outside wedding!

I got to see her before she went down the isle :)

Her mom & dad gave her away...

The beautiful wedding party!

Scott & I at the reception

I created 2 more layouts today...I'm so glad I had the time! Hope everyone has had a great weekend, I'm ready for a new week!

I NEED me some Chick-fil-A!!!

Happy Friday everyone! I am patiently waiting for Scott to get off of work. I'm going to try and talk him into taking me to Chick-fil-A. I am craving that place something crazy! And the bad thing is we will have to drive about 45 minutes to eat it :) I wonder what I can say to get him to take me....hmmm...

Anyone else love that place like me?!

We have a super busy weekend planned. We have to finish painting our living room, go to a wedding Saturday night, watch the big PPV on Sunday and I need to run about 50 errands! Our bridge that connects Milton to Madison will be closed starting tomorrow night at 7. It will not open back up until Monday morning. That puts a BIG damper on things. Blah!

Here are a couple of new layouts that I have created :0)

Scott and I went to Gatlinburg for our HONEYMOON in March! We had so much fun :)



And this layout is of my niece Johanna. Her 1st Birthday was July 18th. She is the cutest baby I know :) The cute cupcake I used on this layout was made by Tessa Ann. Her Etsy shop is the best. Please check it out!!!

Well everyone, have a GREAT and SAFE weekend!!! I'm off to get mine started :)

Ok. I'm a total ditz.

I just had Scott check out my blog. The first thing he said was Srappy & Happy? Stupid me. I forgot the C. Anyone else notice this?! Haha :)

I will get this fixed ASAP :)

I added a few more new things to my pink room. I love this room so much. It makes me soooo happy :) It was a pain to paint it though. We had to give it 2 coats because there was this ugly wallpaper up. Considering how the room looked before I think it looks SO much better!

And here is a pic of the room before. Nice huh?!

I made this layout of Rascal today. I need to start making more of Snickers. I think she is getting jealous. She hates her picture taken though ;)

Have a great Wednesday everyone!

This is why...

I watch wrestling. Need I say more?

Tonight is extra special on WWE. ZZ Top is the guest host. I think I'm in heaven :)

Here are a few layouts I created today along with Jo's card I forgot to put on here :) Hope everyone is having a great week!

It's 1:02 AM...

and I am still awake and I really do not know how!!! I'm trying to keep myself up for a good reason though. Scott is a Chemical Operator for a huge company. His work schedule is 3 on 3 off. He WAS working days from 6 AM to 6 PM. About a month ago they told him he had to go back on swing shift for a few months. So now it's 3 on days, 3 off work, 3 on nights, 3 off work...you get the idea :) I am trying to stay on his schedule but I just don't think I can do it. I am fighting with my eyes right now :)

It has been a great & busy weekend! Scott & I went to our niece's 1st birthday party on Saturday! I can't believe she is already one! She is such a cutie pie. Here are a few pics from the big event! I can't wait to scrap them :)

And here are a couple of layouts I made tonight!

I am still trying to get used to my new scanner. It has been cutting the top & bottom off of all my 12x12 layouts. But other than that little problem I LOVE IT!

I can't fight it any longer...I am off to bed! Hope everyone has had a great weekend!

It's about time!

It has been a GREAT day! I finally got my new scanner & Scott took me to Louisville to buy more sb products! I'm in heaven right now :) We also went to see Harry Potter. It was great! I'm a HUGE Harry fanatic :) We had dinner at O'Charley's & went to Babies R Us to buy our niece a birthday gift. She is going to be 1 tomorrow! She is getting so big :)

My newest layout is of my big baby Rascal. It didn't scan so well because of all the embellies. The other layout is a simple one of moi.

Hope everyone is having a great weekend! :)

FINALLY!

I'm so excited! My scrapbooking room is officially completed :) Now I just need to fill it up with tons of scrapbooking products. I should be getting a pretty big shipment in tomorrow :) I can't wait! I have NEVER had my very own room. Scott is pretty jealous of it :) He says he wants *his* own room now. I told him he can claim the living room with the big screen in it. :) Hope everyone is having a great hump day!

Luv ya Card

This week Scott has bought me 2 cards so I thought I would make him a special one. He is the sweetest :) I used some old supplies mixed with new ones...this was a really simple card to make! Thanks for looking!

Feels great to be back!!!

Ah...It's so good to be scrapbooking again!!! Due to this crazy ride we call Life, I have had to take a break from it. I have made the occasional card for a few family members. Other than that, I haven't been able to create like I have wanted to. Now, I have the time & space to start creating again!! Woohoo!!

My husband is so excited for me, it is so great to have a wonderful caring man like him in my life!!! We have been through so much in the past 2 years I really don't know what I would do without him!!!

The past few weeks have been crazy for us! We decided to go to Karaoke this past Friday night and had an awesome time! We really needed to have a date night :) We both love to sing, even though I can't carry a tune. He is a GREAT singer. Maybe one day he will make it big ;) I took some pics of him singing his little heart out, I can't wait to scrap them!